I just feell like having to post about this right now.
In my last post I talked about the importance of relationships and how it has been hard for me to get have anything that feels acceptable or meaningful.
When it comes to my past experiences with people who I have met and became aquainted/friends with I notice that I moost of the times struggle to get forwrds what I want from that relaton.
In a lot of cases regarding women I have held back too much I think annd I haven’t been forward enough with them. Even with the ones I hooked up with.
I want to make my intentions clear although I don’t want to show them my hand (metaphorical way i.e. hand in like a card game) so that I still have some leverage.
I think everybody wants and needs that actually. When it comes to women I had something going with I laid low for too long until I eventually got uninteresting to them.
I think that I am waiting too long, and yeah, just to say it like the song “I’ve Been Waiting Too Long”, definetly. So I’m doing to do something about it right now.
I had a good day today and the meeting was nice. The two or so hours we spent were really good and I felt like we got closer today. We got talking and you were leading onto something that I could have “taken advantage of” .
What I mean is that you asked me about if I had a girlfriend or somebody I liked. I said no but you probably remember how I told you that I quit liked you and that I wanted to meet up if you were down. You were and it went from there although you told me that you were unsure about some things.
I respect that, but today was different. We can be friends yea sure I’d like to be your friend but is that really how it would go or would you/I loose interest after a while?
I think it would be the latter so if I don’t ask you right now what you mean by asking me about that than we will end up like I did too many times with other girls.
Boys and girls, wish me luck I’m trying to find out about here feelings and I want to be straight with her and tell her how I really feel about us.
Either I get a “no” or I will get a chance but I won’t take the “Friendzone” exit and all be forgotten for nothing. This may be try or die but I’ll take the risk.
Nothing is better to know and act upon what you want.
Thank you for reading,
goodbye!
