I know that this is probably a rather private topic that may just concern me at the moment but I think this can be helpful for other to read too.
In my last post I wrote about wanting to quit school. Although I still would do it I may or may not have decided to give up on that idea. I’ll tell you why:
I’ve been thinking a lot and I mean a LOT about what to do after school and how to handle everything right now. My parents weren’t very happy to hear my idea of dropping out (as anyone could imagen) but after some difficult talks they are still supportive of me. I must say it here at this point that I honestly have great parents.
My parents are against the idea, my uncle also told me his view on the matter and thinks that this would be really stupid of me and my headteachers just now told me that they’d advise against it as well. Now my teachers – they told me and showed me that I would have no reason to at least not finish this year and have a graduation that’d allow me to go study.
They made it apparent to me that all I’d had to do was to just go to school and keep up my marks in 2 subjects (keeping up would mean not getting a donut – 0 points out of 15) in either one of my subjects which would be possible if I’d just showed up again. I was surprised.
This may or may not have changed my opinion. Obviously it’s still not going to be easy for me going to school and all but I’ll try. My grades don’t matter as much, I just need to be there and do some of the work – not in great fashion – but still show that I’m there and trying.
I was and still am nervous about what’s ahead of me. My failures although not nice to look at are apart of me and I can only accept what I did wrong and try and learn from that. I like a lot about school. I also don’t like a lot about school.
This will probably not change nor is this outlook on my graduation a great motivator. I still need to find a drive in the short term to get me though this but that’s something that I think I can do.
Life isn’t about grades – it’s about what you make of it. Accept what you have and try to follow your dreams. Find ways to life a happy and good life even in hard times. That’s my final goal. Not some piece of paper.
I’ll probably make another part updating on the situation. Thanks to everyone who believes in me. I believe in you too!
